Have you met My God??

"You're problem is just too big for this weekend."

I can still hear her words.  She didn't mean to be hateful, or to crush my spirit.  She just honestly did not know how to help and instead of just sitting with me while I prayed, she tried to talk me through it.  What she failed to do, was acknowledge that God is all-powerful, all-knowing, and totally in control. 

I was on a weekend retreat, away from all distractions, totally focused on my relationship with God.  I was 16 and had just learned that my mom was dying of stage 4 pancreatic cancer.  I knew it would take nothing short of a miracle for her healing and I had waited all weekend to lay my problem at the foot of the cross.  It was late, our prayer time was coming to a close, and I had some things to discuss with my Lord.

I don't remember her name, but I know she was one of the leaders of the weekend.  She stood by my side and asked why I was crying.  I briefly explained my situation to which she responded with the statement above.  I'm sure she didn't mean that my problem was too big for God... she just wanted me to wrap it up because she did not know how to respond to something so tragic.

I still thank God that I was much too mature to think that He was not in control.  That I knew better than to believe her comment.  That I had been taught, and truly believed that nothing was too big for God.  He has no time constraints, no deadlines and His Will is perfect.  I can come to Him anytime, anywhere and He is there, ready to listen to my heart.  As soon as the words left her lips, my human nature wanted to tell her a thing or two.  But I didn't, I just thanked her for her concern and asked her if I could continue praying alone.

To this day, I think about those words.  I think about what God has brought me to, and through in my time here and I am blessed by His constant presence in my life.  I want to encourage any of you who may struggle with wondering where God is in the midst of your problems.  He is right there.  He holds this world, and your life in His hands and there is NOTHING that is too big for Him. 

I don't know where this girl was in her relationship with the Lord, and that is none of my business.  But I do know that My God works all things together for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose.  That My God is the beginning and the end and that My God loves me.  I pray that you, no matter what your circumstance, will know that He loves you, He holds you and He has a plan for you.